Stuck in a Loop? Here's How to Get Out

Wake up, smoke a bowl, grab coffee, check your phone, start with texts, then insta, then twitter, maybe snap, pop over to email, back to insta, watch some stories, oh yeah! dating apps, forgot I signed up for those, might as well see if anyone cute is on there. Blech, back to insta, hit the explore page, save some dog vids, ooh, a text! Message for twenty minutes, smoke another bowl, lay down and scroll awhile, get up, needing another coffee.

Broke. Go to work, make some money, feel ok, take a shower, go to sleep, wake up, pay some bills, Broke. Go back to work, make some money, feel ok, shower, sleep, buy something practical that you need for your actual life, clean the house. Buy groceries and paper towels. Broke. Go to work. Make some money. Feel actually good because you’re finally caught up. Decide you’ve worked really hard, you deserve a reward. Splurge. Fuck! Broke! And your hamstring really hurts from overworking! Work. Make a little bit of money. Go home, shower. Feel bad. Take two days off, spend your little bit of money. Broke. Go to work.

Meet. Kiss. Fuck. Catch feelings. Show vulnerability. Drop boundaries. Obsess. Fall in love. Casual Belittling. Actual Fights. Time apart. More obsessing. Overkill Apologies. Drop boundaries. Desperately fall back in love. Casual Belittling. Actual fighting. Overkill Apologies. Show vulnerability. More obsessing. Actual Fighting. Time apart extends. Actual break up. Boundaries rebuild. Purpose becomes restored. Meet. Obsess. Kiss. Catch feelings. Drop Boundaries. Fuck. Show vulnerability. More obsessing. Casual belittling. Triggers past experience. More obsessing. Self harm. More obsessing. Actual fights. Overkill apologies. No boundaries. Desperately fall back in love.